I've been single for the past 3 years but I didn't realized until year 2 that I need this time to be a better me for you when you get here. At first I searched for you looking for every ounce of potential in anything that seemed "good to be true" then wondered how I'm single and heartbroken.
I decided to date God. No I'm not breaking up with him when you get here. I'll continue to walk with him but ill let you lead and ill follow. I want you to be able to pray for me, able to follow God and let him lead our family. Being in a relationship is helping me to grow into the loyal, loving, caring, devoted wife I know you're gone to need.
I need you to be able to protect me. Make me feel like I'm invincible to the world. Even if I hurt I'll be ok because you are by my side. The things I've experienced with men no longer bother me because I know you're too caught up in protecting me that you'll never intentionally hurt me.
I'm working on loving myself so I can love you. I'm following my dreams so I can always have that sense of fulfillment that makes me happy. Establish myself so that I can be an asset to you.
I got sidetracked and gave up on love and you finding me. I decided to get my child first and never worry about you being here. That was selfish of me. I'm on the right path and still believing in you and love. I'm raising my Son to be a respectable, loving, honest, God fearing man. I pray that you add to making him become a successful and a great man.
The beauty of it all is I feel like I know you. Maybe when we decide that the time is right that it'll be a Deja Vu. Maybe I've dreamed of you, passed by you, or even know you now. I don't care who or what was before me. I want to be able to trust in you that I can put all my fears and insecurities away because you're too busy loving me that I forget about everything that would make me doubt you. I'm a simple woman. I need you to be my friend first learn me while earning me. I need you to know me in and out because I want to do the same. I promise you Ill fight for us. I will give you 100% of me. This marriage is gone to work no matter what. Through thick and thin, death due us part.
I don't know what you're doing now but I hope you're getting yourself together to love me. I know this isn't going to be easy but trust me I'll make it all worth it.